After long thought, yeah i not going to blog i guess..
Is better to keep a diary or what. At least i can write off anything that is on my mind with no disturbance. I wouldn't care about anyone.
My idea, my thinking, my feeling, way complicated to understand. And i just can't vent everything on this bloody blog.
I don't need anyone to give me an advice. This is my life. And as i say, who should i care. I am living only for me. So off you go. Out of my world. I fucking pissed with all of this. Help?? Forget it...
FUCK MY LIFE!!!!!!!!FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!FUCK EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!Someday, i will leave all of these..
I am so tired being a female. I mean male is better than female. Althought i may not be correct, but is my point of view.
-When male and female become fat, they can workout to go back shape. But for male, they can work harder and lose fat in the same time achieved a muscular body. And it not that bad. But for female, if we want to lose fat fast, we also cannot work too hard. Otherwise, we will get a bulky body. And it doesn't look too good if we are muscular, right??
-Male can earn more money than female. And some jobs require great physical strength. Do we have it??
-Both male and female can go shopping and there is no adavntage for us female too.
-Compare a male with pimple face and a female with pimples face. Who is at a disadvantages??? The answer is female. Girl will still want a boy with pimple but will a boy want a girl with pimples??
-Girl have bust and have to spend money buying bras. Wearing bras isn't that comfortable especially in a hot day. But why male don't have it. They will never understand what we goes through. All they like is that bloody bust.
-Females also have to goes through giving birth. No males will understand the pain. During this period, they lose their shapes. And some bloody assholes guy will have an affair outside.
-And the every month thing is a nuisance. Not only it waste money buying all the pads, it destroyed our moods, sometimes pains occur, no water activities and worse if it leak and people will be laughing.
-When we married, we will no longer be living with our parent. Worse case if had to live with the in-laws. If we can't get along, can we just go back and live with our parent? Yes, divorce. So what the used of getting married. And guys who are working outside will complain we are the ones giving problems to them. Why not they tried being a housemen and stay at homes doing all the chores and get along with our parent.
They never understand us. Or maybe deep enough. I hate being a woman. All those toturing things. WOMAN SUCK
i feel so out of this world... There seem no connection between me and this bloody world. Nothing link us together.. My friends seem to had changed. Or maybe that is me alone that is changing.
I feel so weird. If only i could end all this..
Today i told a lie.
Just not to worry them..
I run away from fact.
All i know i am sad.
I try everything to hide the truth...
Today was joe's birthday. Happy birthday. =D
Anyway my godfather bought me magazines to read. Hmm i was never into magazine but that magazine he bought was nice. All those clothing, tips, i love it. Thank you =)
Mummy bought soya milk give me. Hahaha i love soya milk. It really good for me. Especially when i am a girl. It is good for neh neh. That what internet say. ^^ By the way, i read up on some book that soya milk help in sex. Haha i wonder it is true?
I am feeling terrible this moment. My rash is back. And this time, worse!! My whole body is filled with itchy red dots. =( I can't help to scratch it. And everytime i do, it hurt more and more. How long can i still take it?? =[
I am bloody fucking itchy now. I feel like using a knife and peel off all red dot!! This is gonna killed me..
I hate it!!!!! Rashes you fucking off my body!!!! Go ass with ur red dots!!
My foot still a lot. Especially the ankle... Did i sprain it???
Ouch Ouch =(
Today was so tiring. Went out morning to do some documentary work. Then went home rest for awhile and evening time, i went for one round. Aww so tiring and my foot hurt. Having blister soon i guess. ^-^
And went point to walk around.
Boring. Gotta bath now. BYe :)
Second Post...Someone come my house today. My father's side people. Who is not so close to me.. Weird to actually come..
Even bought donut which i don't like. But it cute... Those donut have different pattern. Bought from Donut Empire.. But i just don't like the taste. Always make me feel like vomiting..
But i am so stupid to actually tried it. Haha =)
I took two bite because i want eat the bee on the donut. Haha but it still doesn't taste nice.
Okay. End my post now.
I love high heels!!
I love dress!!
I was GREATLY in LOVE!!
I truly love my koala bear. =D
I hug my koala bear all day and never wanted to let go.
My koala bear sooo cute. Just by looking at the cutie face make me happy. ^^
Second post..Yesterday, er kor pull father go buy new handphone. His phone was spoiled so no choice. He bought a new touch screeeeen phone. What the hack... NEW PHONE!!!! [Jealous..] >.<He signed a new student plan. Which was quite cheap.
Father bought one too. Same model because he got voucher so he got it for free. But he didn't change to the new phone just changed his sim card.
And the phone was given to da kor!!! Both of my bro changed phone!! ( Biased )
However i get something too. I get the bro OLD starhub card. Hmm the contract wasn't over mah.
But i given to my mother... So i can contact her easily next time. Anyway i am sharing with her..
Complicated... Anyway it mean i got two number now. But mostly used is my old one lor. Troublsome to changed and changed.
Somemore my contract will end this nov. So going to signed a student plan too. =D
Happy Birthday HanBaoBao [ Joycelyn ]
My 100 post!!!!Joycelyn 's birthday coming up on 7 july. Happy birthday in advance!! =D Sorry this year can't celebrate with you plus no gift. Next year okay?? =P
I am really very tired. I can't get a good night sleep everyday. But that's nothing i can do about it. Just have to get used to it. I really need a good sleep...
I might be going back to school on 15 july. If everything goes well. Only problem now is whether i can walk ...
I need to shed off some weight.. I can't fit in my school skirt. Aww that's suck... Wonder how heavy i am now??
Am i still the same??
Happy Birthday to my MUMMY!! =X
:D :D :D :D :D
I am not drinking enough water...
I feel weak...
Countdown!!! ONE MORE DAY!!!!!!!! =D
Mummy i love you :D
I was pretty well le. Just yesterday night bleed again. My wound seriously need lots of care. Very scary lah. Middle of the night was bleeding so much... So scare infection. Infection need spend money go treatment. Then will not so soon get well. Some more is pain lah!!
My mother was very good to me. Buy pig stuff give me eat. Say will recover faster. But hor i so damm to scare lah. It doesn't teste nice at all and it will make me vomit. But i have no choice not to eat. Is my meal and my mother spend a lot of money buying it. She want me good i can't dissappoint her. So forced myself to finish it. And i was crying..
I poor thing right ?? Eat still have to cry... But i cry is not because i am forcing myself to eat. But i put a lot of chilli to cover the smell. Haha Fool anyone??? ^-^
Anyway for the ones for care about me. I am so touched thank you. I will be fine =D
Specially thank to elton =D
Wow indeed you remember me=) Thank for buying things for me. Haha ^^
Specially thank to joycelyn =]
Don't eat the sweet elton buy for me ARH!!!!!!!! Love you~~