Yesterday watched [Alone] with my parents. It was so scary so i message lyn, givan and him. I am a coward i know. What to do i am born this way. Lalala lyn promised she try her best not to sleep to pei me because i knew i am going to have nightmare. Haha anyway givan halfway stop message me. He never reply my message at all... So was chatting was lyn and watching that show. Everytime i know the ghost going to come out, i quickly close my eyes. So in the end, i never see the ghost face at all. Hahahahaaaa!!!!
After the show end, went back room continue message lyn. But after awhile, she is dead... SHE FALL ASLEEP TOO!!!!!! Left me alone in my room ALONE!!! Told myself not to be scare and went to sleep. ZZZ...ZZZ...ZZZ i have nightmare and was awaken by that. It was 4am and i just can't went back to sleep. Don't know why my mind keep thinking of something althought is not scary at all. Blah blah blah i just can't sleep. Maybe i was alone in my silent room, i very scare. Hug my bloster very very tight with blanket covering up to my mouth...
I wanted to message him. I really very scare. But is was 4am, he will never reply me. I wish he was beside me, i wouldn't be so scare. So my eyes was wide open looking at my surrounding just in case something... Time tick tock tick tock, minutes by seconds past. Finally went back sleep at 6am. LOL i am hopeless.... Anyway wake up at 7 plus because mummy want me go out with her... TIRED!!!!!!!
Recall yesterday incident was quite embarrassing. Remember once watched ghost show with him, i cried. I can't help it. Anyway he is mean. He simply lay in a distance on the bed while watching with me!!!! So i took the blanket and watched at a side. Just feel that i am watching the show alone with nobody there. When i show end, i just cry. Half is it is really very scary, another half is he never care about me. So sad sad and afraid, tears just flow. I just cannot watched ghost show or very gruesome or violent show. My mind will make me think that i am the one being tortured or hunt by the ghost!!!
I miss him a lot. I really try my best. But i have a feeling he is avoiding me. Message him, he will end it or just simply no reply... Last time when i am avoiding him, he also told me the feeling is not good. But now, he is doing the same. Will my feeling be good??...