Okay i am seriously getting him over my life now. I don't know what he wants. Said we can still be friend but what he is doing is not right. Avoiding me in all ways. Hello, i am a human, i have feelings! So be it. He want me to get out of his life TOTALLY, i will just do it. Even if i can't forget him, still love him, i am not going to contact him anymore. He seriously need to know what he have done. He should just realised how hurt it was. Fine, he is over, he choose it. I give my best shot still... Forget it lah!!!!
Today i was a very very good girl. I help my mummy do a lot of things. First, i prepared lunch for the whole family. I cook fried rice for them. Of course, with my mother's help. =D Felt sooo happy. Because i never prepared a meal for them before. First attempt wasn't that good. Rice is hard. But it taste not bad okay, just a bit hard ^^.
Then i help to sweep the floor. I clean my room, parent's room, living room and kitchen. Bro's room was way too messy, dirty, untidy. They should clear up a bit otherwise no way i am going to clean up for them.=) But sadly, =*( while cleaning up, i hurt myself. My left thumb bleed because i was too careless. Hitting the chair just hurt. But hitting the chair with the broom squishing my thumb. OUCH!!! My precious blood...
Never mind. I should be more strong. I am a NPCC cadet okay. Strong so no tears. ^-^
But i don't feel strong nowadays. I feel weak. I feel weird all over my body. Sometimes i feel that i have headaches, sometimes is giddy, sometimes i feel like vomiting, sometimes my stomach just hurt. A lot a lot of problems. I am weaker that last time. Last time, i would just ask givan or joycelyn why they so weak, keep falling sick. Now i am not better than them. They surely is stronger than me now. Awww i don't feel well.
I am Emotionally down, Physically weak, Mentally not working well. Okay this sound quite nice. ^.^