Go check up yesterday, soo pain the injection... Don't know why more pain than last time.. They also never give me ball to squeeze. Last time got de lor... Pain pain, arms can't be straight...
They come in two, i come in one. I miss him so much, does he know?? Would he be there for me during that terrible time?? Would he be there for me if i need him?? What if i can't make it??Really need his support...
Before went sleep yesterday, i read through all the message he send to me. So sweet so WOW!! Felt so happy at that moment. Totally lift up my spirit. Just need to say, HE ROCK!! All the message so promising. Recall some incident like at the camp, what he say to me, make me overcome my fear at the high element. ^^
His smell is addictive so is he. He is like a drugs and i been taking this pills for almost three months, regurlarly. So addicted to it. Everyday i would take this drug. Just by not taking it, i would lose concentration, get irritated, frustrated. Now i am craving for it more and more. But i just can't afford that expensive drug anymore. I am just depending on the powder which the drug have left behind. It make me happy just by smelling it. It just so attractive, addictive. I can't live without it. I don't want to live without it. The feeling is just too nice..
Missing him now..
Today my arms still hurt. The nurse must have no experience... Luckily next check up not so soon. I really want go out. Need stock up my tibits. Running out soon. I have gain weight that is confirm. I am fatter now and can actually fit in L size short.. Joycelyn going to tease me.. She is just so bad.. Haha!!! She got Lim fei now. So sweet lor. I at here keep eating chu. So unfair. Givan better. Win her. Haha!!!!!!!!!!!! =D