Why cant relationship last?? Why does feeling come and go as they like?? If only i can control my feeling to go away now, i wont be so sad at all. Avoiding me help last time but not now. You is the one that make me fall deep in love with you. Making me wanted to last long with you. Even thought of growing up and going perth together. Now you just like throwing me down the rooftop, crushing hopes and dreams i had with you.
I think of you non-stop. Even when i am sleeping, i dream of being with you. How do you expect me to forget you?? I did tried my best forgetting you. But it doesn't work. I didn't put in enough effort?? BULLSHIT!!!! I occupied my time fully. Sweep the floor, tidy up my room, use the computer, watch television show, keep eating, keep sleeping. I do all these just not to think about you. But whatever i do, indirectly it link to you. Almost all the thing we do, i never do with my ex. That why is so hard. Once you say, "life without you is not impossible, is just miserable." Since you know that, why are you leaving me now??
My mum is right. Guys are mean creatures. Saying "i love you, you the best". ASS!! The next minutes, "feeling disappeared, blah blah blah." They can do a lot of things to make the girl fall in love with him. They can also do anything to make the girl lost feeling or even hate him. Why guys can do it?? Why can't i do that?? If only i can make you love me again, i won't be feeling so depressed.
I really wanted to shut myself in my own world. A world i created. No guys, no relationships, no friends. What for i want a relationship that is sweet for 2-3 months and bitter for 2-3 months. NOT WORTH IT!!!! What for i have friends when i cant tell them my problem. *Friends that
already know my problems avoided me...[ * is only for some]